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Saturday, July 15th, 2006
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Sat,
Jul 15th, 06 at 1:25 pm
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Goodbye livejournal im done reading you! 8 years and 3 journals printed & saved for the memories.
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Sat,
Jul 15th, 06 at 1:40 am
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Thanks to De La Soul for saving my night. Its awesome how music can make all of the shit that weighs down your spirits and has the tendencies of cluttering life with stress, just disappear. It makes your life a tunnel and all that matters is you and the sounds coming from the speakers.
Watch my mind drift to the sounds traveling from my headphones to the imagination of a flawless life.
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| Thursday, July 13th, 2006
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Thu,
Jul 13th, 06 at 1:55 pm - Nervous Breakdown CD Release
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These are 5 of my best friends playing a show with the rest of my best friends, go out... support. Purchase the cd!
Help these niggers out.
@Wills Pub
1850 N.Mills Ave
Orlando,Fl
5pm (prompt)
$10
Sinking Ships
Down To Nothing
Nervous Breakdown (CD release show)
Kids Like Us
Loose Cannon
this show has to be over by 8:45..it will start early.
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Thu,
Jul 13th, 06 at 12:13 pm
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The legacy is done. The hearts dead but it tries to smile at your happiness. Def time to skip town. One Day? One Love!
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Thu,
Jul 13th, 06 at 10:23 am
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All my friends are in fucking jail. There is nothing i can do i have no extra cash to bail them out. I got pulled on a suspended license last night and once the again the cop reminded me of my arrest record.
"Son i could bring you in with your record, 1 prior suspended your car is not legal at the moment, 4 assault and battery charges, 2 trespasses" cop
"Well sir all of my record was suppose to be abolished through orders of the court"me
"Well its not and its late and ive seen you all over downtown "cop
He gave me a 78 dollar ticket. I could have been given 2 months for last night. Fuck i could have sucked that niggs dick for not bringing me down. This stresses me out cause after each court date my record was suppose to be cleared due to drop charges minus my trespasses yet my record still shows up and is gonna fuck me one day i know it! After last night I sat and thought of all the things ive done all the things me and my friends have done with a few of which are in jail now. All the crazy stories, the drug profit, the brawls, the mischief. Im thankful for my change in life. If it wasnt for these jobs id move away so stat i officially got nothing here minus like 5 or 6 close friends. My vacation for work is the first two weeks of Aug. Im gonna try and fly out to San Fran and look around for something in the near near future. Wasted youth is a wasted history. I wasted so much time on the wrong path.
Burn this fucking city,
DMC
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| Monday, July 10th, 2006
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Mon,
Jul 10th, 06 at 12:20 am
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a timeless farewell to what's already been said. you can hang your pride but not your head. always fighting, almost breaking. faith is lost, youth is fading. stuck on repeat, letting you down. stuck on repeat, we'll die in this town. this is not the way it ends. we'll carry on, if it's with or without you. closing your wounds, needle and thread. we're taking chances with what we have left, but the deepest cuts will never mend. your life fell short where my life begins. this is where my life begins, erase my face from picture and i wont share the memories, and this is not the way it fucking ends.
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| Sunday, July 9th, 2006
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Sun,
Jul 9th, 06 at 12:45 pm
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Never enough hundreds in the fold to do it all.
Never enough hundreds to help those who fall.
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Sun,
Jul 9th, 06 at 2:53 am - FUCK
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Stay around or let go no fucking games.
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| Saturday, July 8th, 2006
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Sat,
Jul 8th, 06 at 2:06 am
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Theres not much i care about now a days. My friends are lost minus my closest. My love has grown dim. My Hate is reflected in memories. I work and make money. I live to my morals and point my finger at the rest of you. I see street scum and fear the rest of my life. I take timid footsteps to help me never care. Ive lost alot of touch with all of you. I dont know if i care . The hard thing is i live a different life now with different social standards and the only thing that is holding me here is the core. Not many of you have even progressed yourselves as a human being. Its still the same old shit going nowhere. Grow Up. "Hold onto your friends" well im not holding if they let go first.
Fairweather Ends.
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| Monday, July 3rd, 2006
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Mon,
Jul 3rd, 06 at 3:40 pm
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Sweet Nothings Are Gone Forever!
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| Saturday, July 1st, 2006
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Sat,
Jul 1st, 06 at 2:24 pm - GONE
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The good old days are good as gone. Back in the day, before we were hard, when we used to play out in the yard.
Nothing else mattered just then, now theres just nothing, and id be fucking lying if i said i wasnt trying to move on,
but even if i could, i dont think i would because im dying and those days are gone. They're fucking gone.
Im not looking forward to looking back for the rest of my days, I wish i could learn to never look back, but,
sadly its not my way....
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Sat,
Jul 1st, 06 at 4:36 am - :(
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| Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
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Tue,
Jun 27th, 06 at 4:35 pm
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Im livin' life. Its good, its not the way its ever been. I dont do anything. I got 2 jobs now. I'm a chef in training slash under study of this amazing chef at Dereks Culinary Casual. Im learning things about food that i never thought existed, never thought id prepare Rabbit Livers and Hearts with Green Onion Pancakes topped with a Chilled Rabogot to be sold and enjoyed by many! Heres a little write up... (http://forums.egullet.org/index.php?showtopic=82976) I enjoy this at times but then just like every other job its got its lows. I got the opportunity to start a second job Sarasota Olive Oil Company mainly working in the coffee shop, but i deal with everything from Gourmet Cheeses, Sea Salts, Pestos, Olives, and Olive Oils from around the world that range from $7.00-$80.00. Its not a bad part time gig. Here's the store site to who ever might be interested. ( http://www.sarasotaoliveoil.com/ ).
Between the two jobs im gonna be making decent skrill!
I got a new Toshiba Notebook today and its gonna work out pretty good. I can use my Motorola Cellular as my Modem on the road if there is no wi-fi around or if im on the interstate. It kind of sucks that due to the course of mother nature striking my crib and imploding my old computer making me loose 9 days worth of full length albums. Yea i lost years of memories in pictures but fuck it let the past be laid to waste, theres nothing but today in front of me. Yet hot damn man i had so much music on my i-pod and music is the key to my life.
Speaking of music, I and Sir Steve have gone into buisness of sorts and started the project called Ex-Presidents Records. With are first release slowly being under way, which will be a joint release with Evans Mosh Camp Records. Nervous Breakdown- Lifetime of Letdowns 7in ep will hopefully be released on Halloween. http://www.myspace.com/nervousbreakdown
Ive got something to proove to someone it seems. I feel back burned but as always my happiness is in you. I dont know what is to be done. Im just laying in a cradle i suppose.
TURN COLD!!!!!!!!
You call it growing up
Come to terms with all the years
That you spent fucking up
And to wipe away your tears
I've lost myself
And time hasn't changed a thing
I'm still a fucking kid
Trying to deal with his mistakes
I'm sick of pressing on
Cause shit still ain't making sense
And no matter how hard I try
My life is still a fucking mess
I've lost myself
And time hasn't changed a thing
I'm still a fucking kid
Trying to deal with his mistakes
Crushes on and dreaming
Keeping to ourselves
I drown myself
But it proves I care
I still can't forget those years
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| Monday, June 26th, 2006
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Mon,
Jun 26th, 06 at 5:11 pm
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| Saturday, June 24th, 2006
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Sat,
Jun 24th, 06 at 2:09 pm
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Ive got sunshine in a empty sky.
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| Thursday, June 15th, 2006
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Thu,
Jun 15th, 06 at 2:38 am - Thank you best friends for ending my night in smiles!
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I've failed at everything, but I know. Please stay by my side,
don't walk out of sight and stomp your heels through my heart. This is all
I've got. This is all I know. All my life, I've been told... glit and gold
is something I'll never see. Misery has got a home, inside my soul. Bringing
down the hammer... on my coffin nail. Pour my guts for nothing... we we're
meant to burn in hell.
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| Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
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Tue,
Jun 13th, 06 at 12:16 pm - Cant get it out of my head
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i'm dying to change your world - a hand to make it pass - i know you wanted gold - all you got was black - didn't we ever smile at the good times? - everything that gave you hope - i shot down with arrows - god always willing to hear when the angels cry - yet your tears tell a million lies - you care for all its worth - a tear for every hurt - slashing holes in the walls of your everything - my years have been spent destroying your hope bound hearts
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| Sunday, June 11th, 2006
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Sun,
Jun 11th, 06 at 2:02 pm
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I might have watched one to many teen cult movies, but only if love was as easy as Freddie Prinze Jr made it look.
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| Thursday, June 8th, 2006
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Thu,
Jun 8th, 06 at 4:27 am - Grip it.
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To this day i try to recall how it was, to feel those days when there was nothing to loose. I always want something more, but it will never end. Im done with the pressure, to hold close those certain thoughts of love that were meant to be kept under lock and key. I wanna forget but i wanna remember. No longer will i search for purity in these city streets, id never think this is where id be. Im sorry i had given up on you. When i think of all i lost... i think of all that that you have lost. We can never go back, we can never relive those days. So im gonna let time slip away. A day, a month, a year, nothing stays the same. "Dont Look Back, Time Marches On With Or With Out Us". My heart has known nothing but my last words and all the things that should have been said. I am not gonna work for something that is afraid to except a fresh breath. One sided and alone is how i lay my head before i sleep. Im gonna kiss it goodbye. I cant get back the momments that i charised the most. The quickest days are being laid to waste. Only if you'd regain that smile on your face, so i wouldnt feel so pushed aside. I need a sign, so i dont lay through my nights so idle. Im gonna rise, even when love is all i ever have. Even when the word, is all it takes to make me fall. Im gonna leave it alone. I want the world to know im at a another all time low.
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| Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
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Tue,
Jun 6th, 06 at 2:48 pm
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